I am trying to remember you,
let you go
the same time.
I really don’t have the time or energy to really think about this so tumblr can listen to me
Ah I want to leave you behind for good for right now because it hurts a lot and I don’t want to think about everything for about a month and maybe I’ll be okay.
And I don’t even know what to do with you… If your stupid and naive then maybe I can deal with it Maybe..I know I said I was done but..sigh..idk idk
And you..hmm maybe with you things can have a fresher start? Moving on from what happened before? But I’m hesitant because the other two meant a lot to me and a lot of things happened..
I don’t know what’s the right move to make. I always like to go with the flow but my heart doesn’t have a “flow” right now -__- annoying annoying.. Hopefully this all gets worked out so I can focus on other things! For the first person, I really know there’s a reason you had to leave right now and maybe things will be better later I don’t even know let’s see where things go where God leads us!
I don’t even know how to feel.
And I’m too lazy to write everything down so whatever.
I’m pretty confused.
I don’t really wanna think about guys right now, but I admit a teensy weensy bit of you is on my mind.
I’m pretty sure I just love you a LOT as a person and I’m confusing it for mixed feelings.
It’s all good, I’ll miss you lots though </3
Wish I could get closer to God..
SO many distractions.
I really want to be a better person but it’s like my mind is saying “NAH’
ugh wanna get out of this stupid autumn poopiness phase :(
Just realized that it has only been a month since I was last on here..o_o